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Everyday, we're influenced from the media- from our peers- from everything around us. Well, though my identity may look like it changes from day to day; underneath it all, this blog shows i'm always, Aliella.. x♥x
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Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
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Yay, I'm getting sick. Cold, sore throat, zombie-like face. Joyful. TK killed me. I went to her mom's- she got sick- now i am sick. It SUCKS.
I blow my nose every freaking five seconds. 
*aw, man. My nose is going to look like Rudolph's by the end of the week!*





yeah, boyy;
smiles all around.
♥.
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I'm sitting here on Thanksgiving night thinking about all the many things I've been blessed with.
My ability to express my faith freely. 
My family.
My best friends.
My house.
Food in my stomach. *maybe a little too much. lol*
My clothes.
A cell phone.
A computer.
Electricity.
Clean water.
etc..
Even if i sometimes don't show it, i really am so extremely thankful for everything God's given me, are you?
♥.


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City lights, restaurants with long lines, couples holding hands, shops on every corner, street performers... Chicago is utterly amazing, and I'm pretty sure I'm destined to live in either that city, or another big city. Walking up and down those sidewalks, passing by rushing cars and towering skyscrapers..it all gave me chills, just like it always does. The thing is, in that same moment, I'm completely terrified by the knowledge that I'm sprinting out of my comfort zone and I have absolutely no idea about anything around me, but yet it still gives me this sense of complete, well, comfort and peace or serenity that just makes me feel like that's where I'm supposed to be or that's what I'm supposed to be part of. It's all just... breath taking =] 
just a thought..
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So, normally *even though I'm far from normal* i would be posting on Poseur Fan Site, but i thought that this is one blog that has to be put on the original, good 'ole Poseur ♥.

These days in my youth group, a lot of people don't come to talk to/and about God, or learn more about him- they just come to socialize. 
And I'd be a liar if i said i haven't been one of those people. But, my youth group is splitting up-
everyone is screwing up their lives;
giving in;
getting out;
taking away;
and it seems there are very few who now have a committed walk with Jesus....
Sneaking out, lust, moving, drugs, alcohol, sex, peer pressure..it's all stuff that can tear people apart- but the real thing i think that's causing our youth group "population" to dwindle?
us.
Many of us abide by the "well, I'm a teenager, and this is my time to try new things and have no regrets; live my life to the fullest!" and we shouldn't! We need to be living by how God wants us to live the life He gave us. And that doesn't include living like God didn't put a good head on your shoulders! 
Another thing is, a lot of us are weak. Dead to humanity when it comes to peer pressure. We give in, in an instant. Trying to fit in, trying to look "cool", trying to act like someone we aren't. Being rebellious.
And i think it's time it stops.
I'm sick of trying to pick up the pieces, and being included in the negative assumptions people have after they've heard a few things about what a couple of people are doing! And i know I'm not the only one who feels this way-
seriously! How hard is it to JUST SAY NO. Think through the freaking consequences. That's why we have them! So we fear the punishment-and it stops us from doing things we'll regret.
Personally? I've given up on half of our group. I'm sick of them, I'm sick of being around them, and I'm sick of trying to show them the right way. Right now, I've gotten closer to God, I've stopped trying to fit in and just be myself...and if i get made fun of, who cares? Not me..not anymore. I'm now not afraid to stand up for myself, for my beliefs, for my God, for my family and friends, i am fearless to sin. And I'm happily radiating God's love for me and humanity, and helping my friends; one at a time.
This week's goal?
Think it through...
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yay! I've written 40 posts =)
i still need to advertise a little..BUT lol
jk.
no but that would be really cool.
Okay, currently my life is very confuzzling, but I'm trying to make it a little better.
No-Name, and I, have not talked (talked talked) yet, but I'm still awaiting that.
School is fast approaching, and i am totally not prepared, though i have promised *myself* to try my absolute hardest in every subject and attempt straight A's.
((we'll see if that actually happens))
hopefully it will. *crosses fingers*
my "make-out buddy - the make-out" < if that's what we "officially" are now, and i are still practically best friends..though i think he's not telling me everything. (!)
crikes.
but sometimes i feel so weird!
*shut up Roxie. lol*
sometimes i just get so deep into my thoughts, that i start questioning my motives, my friends, my family, my life, i start questioning me! and i hate it when i get like that because it makes me really messed up, then i start screwing up everything in my life. *sighs*
maybe I'm just an extremely mental person, and i endanger myself. so put me in a straight-jacket, and haul me to a white- padded-wall room
i need it.
♥.
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