Well it's come again.
One of the most: exhilarating. dreaded. exciting. butterfly-prone days ever.
~THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL~
The thing is, I'm usually wayy more nervous than I am..maybe it just hasn't hit me yet, or possibly I'm more overcome with sadness for being left behind at the middle school or something.
Anyways-
Tomorrow I (hopefully) will hold my head high, while rockin' a killer outfit, will parade through those halls with confidence, cool, and intelligence radiating off of me.
HA.
yeah right. Most likely something will be spilt or knocked onto my outfit/or i can't find some major piece. I'll run into the door or something. I'll rip or drop something trying to get my (bottom *gripes*) locker open. AND I'll trip down the hallway and get lost on my way to class.
Yep. sounds about right.
but- I'll keep you all informed, if you happen to care, on how my day actually goes.
((please pray i don't injure myself!))
♥.

Today was my little sister's 9th birthday...
*woo!*
She had balloons, party favors, a movie, movie snacks...and my mom & i were their "waitresses" lol did i mention tons of gifts?
yepperoo-
but the best thing that happened today (?)
She came up to me, gave me a big hug, and said,"you made this the best birthday ever (!)"
This month's goal:
- give more than you take
=)=)=)=)(=(=(=(=
well, peace (gtg chill with the B-Day girl)
♥.

Uh...I've done basically nothing this week *hence, the Ultimate Housewife post* but today...i finally got out of the house
*yay!*
I went to Cholula's (yumm!) =)
And then I hung out with my "twin". ((we're actually 15 (!) years apart))
& watched The Breakfast Club, which I am now in love with the character "John Bender", it is a fabulous movie (!) and we ordered pizza, watched Tuck Everlasting (and did i mention I'm also in love with Jesse Tuck??!) and loaded ourselves with too much pizza, coca-cola, and CANDY BARS.
pretty great day.
oh, and we uploaded a million + 1, pictures of ourselves that we took on her Mac.
Thank You God (!)
this day was utterly amazazing.
off to the nook.
[bedtime.]
♥.

I cook, I clean, I've become the ultimate housewife these past few days.
^ which i know they do wayy more than that
Staying at home all day isn't as fun when you don't have certain people* calling you.
And It's definitely not fun when siblings eliminate the computer and television from your electronic diet.
sheesh.
I've started boring myself (!)
- the only good from this?
I've gotten my passion for sewing back, and oh how i love it =)
peace.
♥

Lately, with all the things that have happened to me... I've decided to just simply. GO.
Think ahead, plan it out, keep myself busy, all while simply; going.
Up until this point, I've always kind of been a go-with-the-flow kind of girl. And thus far, my life has proven: it doesn't work for me.
SO, I've decided to get up of my duff *figuratively speaking* dust myself off, and plan out what I want to get done in the next 5 years of my life; (my language teacher would be proud!)
of course keeping in mind that things will change if God wants them to. And this will be called my "Goal-Binder" *real catchy name, huh.*
Jam-packed with Information, Goals, Check-lists, How-to's, etc..
Some people might think I'm crazy or something, but doing this gives me something to look forward to, to work for, to make happen.
And I plan on doing just that (!) Making. It. Happen
peace.

i think it's Lola.
johnny, correct me if I'm wrong.
You're chihuahua (?)
is Lola? yes?
=)
it's kinda funny because when i get bored, home alone, with my dog, Teddy. . .
i sometimes go into deep conversations with him. But that's beside the point.
ANYWAYS.
Johnny, I told Teddy, that someday him & Lola, would meet, fall in love, and have really cute puppies together. Now, there's a really slim chance that will ever happen.
But Teddy doesn't know that....and i feel bad, because i think i kinda got his hopes up.
Jeez..I'm a horrible dog owner.

yay! I've written 40 posts =)
i still need to advertise a little..BUT lol
jk.
no but that would be really cool.
Okay, currently my life is very confuzzling, but I'm trying to make it a little better.
No-Name, and I, have not talked (talked talked) yet, but I'm still awaiting that.
School is fast approaching, and i am totally not prepared, though i have promised *myself* to try my absolute hardest in every subject and attempt straight A's.
((we'll see if that actually happens))
hopefully it will. *crosses fingers*
my "make-out buddy - the make-out" < if that's what we "officially" are now, and i are still practically best friends..though i think he's not telling me everything. (!)
crikes.
but sometimes i feel so weird!
*shut up Roxie. lol*
sometimes i just get so deep into my thoughts, that i start questioning my motives, my friends, my family, my life, i start questioning me! and i hate it when i get like that because it makes me really messed up, then i start screwing up everything in my life. *sighs*
maybe I'm just an extremely mental person, and i endanger myself. so put me in a straight-jacket, and haul me to a white- padded-wall room
i need it.
♥.

This summer, i've learned, er, read a quote that is probably the most honest-to-blog, smartest, and most true words EVER!
the quote: "Growing up has nothing to do with Age."
Amen (!)-
to whoever said/typed/wrote that.
major kudos (?)

A close friend and i have been going through some rough times lately- this friend will remain anonymous; until further notice.
But i still really love this friend. & even though i say that i want nothing to do with them, i will always be there for them.
though i say i can't stand being around them anymore, i really wish that we were as close as ever.
though i think that they make the most stupid decisions in the history of stupid decisions, i still think that they are wayy smarter than me.
and though i say i hate them, i really love them more than i could ever say.
so, if i lose this friendship, i'm done for. i may say that it'll be better without them but deep down i know (i'm nothing without them.)
and of course, i'll never admit to this blog- so don't try.
NO-NAME?!
i miss you. ------------------- the OLD you.
i hate new & improved, 'cause really? it's one of those horrible sequels to a great movie where they don't have the same actors and it sucks.
don't be that crappy sequel.
v_v

My Boyfriend (ahem. mr. wells) already knows basically everything i'm going to say in this one particular blog already [oh, how i love long talks on the phone.]
so- some might be wondering, though there are very few that actually read my blogs, what in the galaxy "Dear Johnny...*yes, the sequel* is."
Well first, last year at camp, i got a boyfriend *shocking, i know* and since it was quite long distance i swore (well if i swore i would've sworn..) to myself to keep a journal/diary/memoir/love note- type dealio that i would give to this boyfriend *coughjohnnycough* the next time i saw him. And you can even ask him, i wrote tons of random things, mushy crap, and just things i am now like "why in the galaxy did i ever write that?!"- but just like i 'swore' i gave it to him.
In it though, i wrote a lot of my feelings, thoughts, and other things that went through my mind and it helped me quite a bit.
So this whole entire "poseur." blog is technically the loverly sequel to the first..Dear Johnny.
i should get these published.
or change the blog name...=)
naa.
♥.