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So.. i figure, i'm never ever ever on this blog, though i love it dearly, it twas the very beginning of my blogging. the very baby of my cyber life womb. Okay, that was weird. i admit it. but you know what i mean.
Therefore... all good things must come to an end..
I shall delete this blog soon.. =[
Visit www.alwaysaliella.blogspot.com if you haven't already!
thanks!
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In/Out
Constant talking / nothing to chat about
happy dresses ;) / lame jeans
Lame Friends / "best" friends?
Goodwill / the mall. yuck.
20(or 2000) Q's/ knowing it all
Bulbous noses / cute button noses
(: auburn hair. / your average; blond, brunette, red..
[this one had a lot. lol embrace it.]
<3
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So, i found out tonight that my writing didn't make it as a finalist in the Scholarship Contest.
which is.. honestly. a disappointment. and i also found out, if i still want to try to go to school there, i have less than 6 days to send in my application and portfolio.
*sighs*
i need a miracle.
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There's a certain special boy, that just so happens to be my bestest friend ;]
The saying," to the world he may be one person, but to that one person, he may be their world" seems to fit when describing what he means to me.
He's quirky, and (to me) invincible, and it takes quite a bit to cause a crack in his shield.
>> he looks strong on the outside, but he's still mushy gushy on the inside ;] i would know. lol(wl)<<
On a bad day, you can always count on him to make you smile, and even on those days when your bottled anger just comes pouring out- you could call him any name in the book & he'll calm you down instantly.
He's always easy to talk to [sometimes you mean to say only a few words- but his effect on you just causes them to keep gushing out, until all needed to be said- is said] and always seems to have time to talk.
Selfish? never. Conceited? lol(wl) not on purpose ;]
There are so many words i could say, but none could measure up to how great he truly is..
ily; bfffe&e
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This picture, entitled, "little Ghost" by: Philipp Klinger..
is amazing.Right now- i long to be that girl.
running wild through an enchanted forest. sunlight streaming through the tree tops.
Taking in autumn air, breathing deeply, letting a cool breeze and smell of fall leaves engulf you... absorbing it with every fiber of your being.
to me; this is my place. (as of right now) my ideal thinking place. Now if i were only like Jumper, and could transport myself right now.
I'd do it in a heartbeat..
readers?: where's your pondering place?
comment!
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I usually do this on Poseur Fan, but- eh, i felt the need to spice things up a bit..it needs it. lol
In/Out
Wii Fit / Wii Sports
singling & mingling* / indecisive relationships
dreams you don't want to / crappy life.
wake from....
speaking your mind / "biting your tongue"
the author Ted Dekker / T.V <>
[don't forget to pass on Poseur to your friends, loves]
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She lifts her face to the spackled ceiling, and purses her lips- before opening them in a wide "O".Her head is swimming with thoughts- anger rising in her chest, swelling like a massive tidal wave before it pours out.
She screams as loud as physically possible. She doesn't care who hears her, or what anybody thinks. Her soul's opened, and a voice inside her sings out stress in breathy whispers.
She's furious.
Furious with herself. Furious with her friends. Furious with people she hasn't spoken more than 5 words to lately.
She's mad that jealousy has taken hold of a corner of her heart. And it won't let loose. clinging and clinging to her diminishing emotions.
She shrieks a blood-curdling, parting sound. Her throat is hoarse. Her neck pained.
Her knees collapse under her, and she falls to the ground sobbing. Praying that she overcomes these pent up feelings. Praying that all that rests inside her, floats away..
just, praying.
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Sigh*
Well, it's almost the dreaded Valentine's Day. It's great if you're in a relationship; it sucks if you're single.
Honestly, being "single", has it's highs & lows. You can flirt or mingle, and not worry about what your boyfriend thinks. You can not care at all what you look like during the school days (i mean, you don't have anyone to look "cute" for. ) But then again.. You don't have someone to do things with on the weekends, or look forward to seeing. You DON'T have anyone to look "cute" for. No one to hold hands with, or show your love for. And no one to show up on your doorstep with a heartfelt Valentine's greeting and/or gift.
Depressing.
So, this Valentine's Day, i will probably be at home, watching my little sister, as every freaking couple in the world does something romantic.
Goodness-
*heavy sarcasm*
i can't wait.
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Obama is about to become (officially) President Barack Obama.And i am utterly ecstatic!
History is about to be made- and i'm so happy to be able to witness it. Even if it is through tv.
Until later, this is all i have to say;
God be with our country...
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That, um, no boy thing?yeah- nah.
it's not working for me.
Then again, it's not like i have anyone to break that rule for right now.
How depressing..
Everywhere you go? couples.
School? couples.
Neighborhood? couples.
Restaurants? couples.
Church? couples.
And i could go on.
this sucks.
...............
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In/ Out Chilly weather/ Sunny settings
Absolutely NO school / Friday School Days
telling the truth / hiding the obvious
friendly encounters / flirtatious conversing
Blogging! ;] / Old, "dear diary" 's
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Oh my goodness! he's got to be my absolute favorite designer!Marc Jacobs is just, i can't even describe him.
His works are of a true designer- and he deserves what he's gotten all these years for his hard work!
;]
i can't even say much more than that..
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I never realized exactly how amazing friends are.Johnny, Jana, Josh, Julia (lol a lot of j's) Tandice, and so many more..
*and in no particular order*
But my life is so dependent on them.. and they truly make my world go 'round.
I talk to them tons- i go to school with them- i go to church with them-i'm related to some of them-but yet, i'm bonded to them in a totally different way; a way that takes our friendship beyond imagination. And without them all, i just wouldn't be the same person i am.
i'd be boring, *more boring* shy, *more shy*, and have no friends!?!
now that's a sad world...
.: this month's agenda?: make a new friend!- oh wait, i did!! :.
;]
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A great friend of mine said to me," Your shirt is glittery." and i replied with,"..um, yeah?"He then attempted to rub glitter onto his palms from my sleeve.
He failed.
"It doesn't come off." He simply stated.
"i know.." i said back.
"Oh well, after all, Glitter is the herpes of all craft supplies." (he said nonchalantly)
I giggled, and giggled, and toppled over with laughter; in fact, my doing so- resulted in his chuckling too.
Breathlessly i shot back," that's soo true!"
And we laughed and pondered about this some more.
Glitter IS the herpes of all craft supplies.
It makes so (x infinity) much sense!
Once it's on you, it's almost impossible to get off!
And now i share this statement with you..
*courtesy of my friend*
Ponder my children, and keep pondering.. never let your ponderful mind's stop pondering!
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I was freaked, because of my whole having to send in my loverlee application for the contest at Interlochen. But i went to Juliea's =] and it was amazing. We ate wayyyyyy to much pizza & breadsticks. Played countless InkBall and Cake making games, and took lots and lots of pictures (= it was quite joyous.
here's a picture from our adventures that night!
i love her!
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I feel like writing in HUGE letters. It makes me feel larger than life=]Any who...
It's snowing, so I'd thought I'd whip up a little poem for the occasion.
Snowing and blowing,
and whipping around,
there's white on our faces,
and mush around town.
The air is quite chilly,
and so i suppose,
you think I'm quite silly,
for not just writing a prose!
People are slipping,
on ice oh so slick,
and jack frost is nipping,
so warmth please come quick!
i know, i should go pro.
Anyways- Good mood has come =] i love it.
i hate snow though, i wanted to go to youth group...
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You know what a really sad thought is? I don't want to go back to school. But not because of the "in" crowd of annoying people, or the killer homework, or boring classes.
I don't want to go back to school because of my friends and the fact that I'm happy.
Lately, at school, it's like everyday my friends have to argue about some little thing.. or get all moody with me just because they haven't had a good day. Or they just woke up like that. Therefore, they put a huge damper on my mood.
I'll admit I've done it once or twice to them. But i cannot stand it.
I like to be happy, i like to have fun at school- but i can't when the people that have my backs? Are killer to my mood!
Anyways, just a thought.
By the way, Hailey, I don't start drama, i do avoid it.
But if you realize something... I started avoiding you guys and your drama? And what happened? You think somethings up with me. And what happens then? Drama has begun.
Sighs**
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p.s i made an awesome friend today.
Born in Ireland, and a writer. Plus.. he's a Christian.
=] God times things perfectly.
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This Christmas, didn't feel like Christmas.. But it was nice to have family home for the holidays. And it was good to finally sleep.. A lot. & New Year's Eve/day was even better! =]
My best friends close by made me realize 2009 really could be better than '08. Of course, an incident happened that almost made me change my mind. But no use living in the past.
This year is going to be my year. I'm going to make it. My What-ifs will hopefully turn into for sure things, and i've decided to put my heart into all i do.
I'm going to change.. or re-invent myself. I think i really need it. Time away from the usual crowd has done me good, and maybe it might stay that way. I'm going to be more confident in what i do. Starting with little things and working my way up. My writings will be taken to the next level, my designs put to the test, and my creativity set on full blast. I'm determined to make this the year that pushes me to the places i want to be. To put me on top of my game, to give me the shove i need for my dreams to become reality.
This year will be the year i do what i feel is needed, and start making my great escape.
After all, i was always taught that i can do anything i put my mind to...
trust me, i will.
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